Dates – Love Letters

Our Dating Life

Posted on October 1, 2016Author NickLeave a comment

blog-pic — Words you used to described our first dates together….

It’s been 2 years since we’ve had our first date (actually it’s tomorrow but I wanted you to share this with you today). What I remember about that date is meeting up this cute Asian girl that was full of energy and interesting with mostly BS sounding entertaining stories (you haven’t change). The more dates we went on, the more I realized that I have never met anyone like you and that you were special (beautiful, stylish, articulate, emotionally intelligent, fun to be around, and one of a kind).

Every weekend since then has been full of activities, thoughtful conversations, laughs, theatre of the absurd, and a coziness and comfort that feels natural. We are dating the complementary versions of ourselves. Our time together has it’s own feel/vibe (like going to new city) except our place appears whenever we are together and follows us wherever we go.

We have also had some trying times in the last 2 years too (the dog bite, sick family, and vaccine phobia) but it has always brought out the best in our relationship and demonstrated how strong our relationship is and what kind of bond and love we have for each other.

I’m excited for the future and I enjoy reminiscing about the past with you. We have so many memories and so many more to make.

… .. = I love you so much

The First I Love You

Posted on July 2, 2015Author CucLeave a comment

I had flown out to the NYC the weekend before to meet with my client on his website design and had just gotten back that Monday. I think the first time I saw you was on Thursday. I missed you a lot while I was gone.

I had a lot of feelings for you that were sort of pent up by now. I told my friend that I thought I was ready to tell you that I loved you but I was a little nervous about saying it to you first. We were going to do fireworks (fireworks go BOOM) at Shelly’s and I thought that it would be nice to tell you “I love you” during the fireworks.

We were just laying around and talking about my trip to NYC. I told you how eccentric my client was and that he was an interesting character. The apartment that he used as his office was nice and I enjoyed staying there. I told you that the food near the outskirts of Harlem was much better than any of the stuff we had in the main parts of NYC. It was also cheaper.

You said that you were nervous about the whole trip and was afraid that it was sketchy. I had told you that I felt that you before I left too. I had a lot of stuff going on at the time and you didn’t want to scare me, so you kept those thoughts to yourself. You figured everything was okay, but you could help being a little concerned that you didn’t hear from me the next morning. I met my client at Starbucks around 10am and I didn’t want to wake you up since I was an hour ahead. We got so busy talking about the work that I didn’t get a chance to text you or even eat. It was 3pm when I had my first meal.

While you figured everything would work out, you said that in case anything had happened to me, you didn’t want to have regrets of not telling me that you loved me when before sending me off. I didn’t expect you to say that but it was sweet that you were worried about me and cute that you just told me you loved me.

I hugged you and told you I loved you too. You started feeling it during our NYC trip and had felt it a little even before that. I’m not sure when it all came together for me, but I’d say it was about the same. I hadn’t really been paying attention to it because I am always so caught up in the moment when I am with you. I was really happy that we exchanged these feelings for each other and had moved to the next level of our relationship.

Happy New Year 2015

Posted on December 31, 2014Author CucLeave a comment

We had plans to ring in the new year together with some champagne and lucky foods. But first, I had to go to Yuan and Kyle’s for hotpot with their mother and friend. It was the first time I had hotpot with them and it was really good but I was eager to go over to your house. I ended up coming over a little late.

You had been sick from drinking too much the night before. It might have been the continuation of your birthday celebration. I think we had discussed going out for a short bit, but plans had changed from the looks of you still being in your PJs. You heated some traditional lucky German food you had made for us earlier and made some pistachio pudding too. I told you that I never had fruit cake when we were talking about A Christmas Vacation, so you got some for me to try. You tried it first and told me not to, lol.

We channel-surfed through all the performances and I told you how much I didn’t like Pit Bull. He just looks so greasy and slimy. I also told you that the performances were nothing like they used to be and you knew what I was talking about. They used to start earlier and last past the end of the countdown. Nowadays, it seemed to be lacking. I would have enjoyed a drink with you while we were watching TV, but you were still hungover.

It was a little weird to watch TV with you, because you were usually on one end of the couch and I was on the other. We had been dating for about three months by this point but there were still barriers. While our conversations were always consistent and I always had fun with you, rarely were we cuddly or psychically close.

You know that I take things very slow, but at the same time, I love the small innocent and sweet gestures of hugs and cuddles. I always felt confused about this especially after an amazing date. I felt we had a really great connection but it didn’t always translate. It seemed like things would build up, we would have a “moment”, and then wait for the next burst of affection. You gave me a quick peck after it turned 2015 and I went home shortly after. I always have a good time with you, but I have to admit that it felt a little awkward sometimes. I just figured you weren’t an affectionate guy, so I left it alone. Or I was sending off the wrong vibe.

When I Returned From China

Posted on December 26, 2014Author CucLeave a comment

I had been back from China for a few days and this was the first night I got to see you. It was the day after Christmas. We had been texting since I got back and you had told me that missed hanging out with me. You also said that you would miss me before I left. It was nice to hear. I thought about you a lot when I was in China. I didn’t like not being able to communicate much those two weeks. t was happy to be back and doing things with you again.

You made dinner for me that night. As you were finishing up with preparing for dinner I told you about my trip. I told you about being scammed at the teahouse and how it didn’t quite live up to what I remembered. It felt different and the nostalgia from ten years ago no longer resonated with me. I learned some lessons from the trip and I had no desire to go back to China anymore. Maybe if I went with you…

I brought you back those lucky lions “dragons” because we had such a debate on what kind of creature they really were. I wasn’t expecting anything from you for Christmas so I was surprised when you gave me presents. It was so thoughtful. You got me the book of places to travel in the U.S., the treats for my pets, the orange watch that I regrettably lost the next evening when I was out, and that Ritz tin as mockery of my Secret Santa gift in first grade. This was the first glimpse of your amazing gift-giving skills. I didn’t experience your wrapping skills yet.

pet treat

I was so glad to be home. It felt comfortable and right to be where you were.

Our First All Day Date

Posted on December 6, 2014Author CucLeave a comment

We had our first morning date on this day. I left for your house in the morning and you drove us to the Mastermind Distillery in IL. Everyone there were couples and there were a handful of us. While we waited we got some tasty drinks. The Bloody Mary I got was one of the best I’ve ever had. I could feel myself warming up from the alcohol and the heat while we were attending the demonstration.

When we got the tastings for the vodka and other products they had, I really took a liking to their moonshine, LPR. The guide explained the story behind the name. It was provocative but easy to guess what it stood for. I ended up buying a bottle of it after our tour. You got to take home a bottle of the vodka that we got to dip and seal ourselves. I forgot to ask you to save the bottle as a keepsake.

When we got back to your place, you put old Christmas records on and we tried our new alcoholic purchases in your lab. After a little bit, we started working on the gingerbread house. It was a cute idea and I’m glad you saved it for us. We had a lot of fun with and found many ways to be creative. I think it’s the best gingerbread house ever.

gingerbread house

This was in a way our Christmas together. I was leaving for China on the 9th and this was one of our last dates before I left. I might have seen you one more time before I left. I was bummed that I left while the night was still young. My friend was in town and staying at my house, but I honestly didn’t want to be with anyone but you. I had started realizing that my time with you was my best times. It diminished the desire to be around anyone else. We had spent at least twelve hours together and I still wanted more.

Our First Concert – Bush

Posted on December 2, 2014Author CucLeave a comment

I probably hadn’t been to a concert since I was in high school. I think that the Z-107.7 Summer Jam of 2001 was my last one. Bush, my favorite alternative band from my adolescent years was performing at the Pageant. I had to see my crush, Gavin Rosedale, and I wanted to see him with you. I had gotten the tickets about a month before and had been waiting anxiously to go.

You Me at Six was the opener. I didn’t have a lot of expectations for the opening act but I enjoyed them. We were watching from the top level and when they were done, we migrated towards the standing floor in front of the stage. I was surprised by how easy it was for us to be so close to the front of the stage.

Bush Concert 16642835290_9c0f5bbff6_o There he was, standing just a few feet away from me. There’s nothing sexier than people do something they love and are passionate about. I stood there for an hour and a half soaking in his stage presence and reminiscing of my youth. We couldn’t have gotten any closer. I was so close to him that I could see drops of sweat drip off his face and body. I was afraid any closer and it would get on me. That unfortunately, was also a little disgusting. I’m so glad he decided to lose his space jacket. Based on other pictures I saw of his tour, he didn’t really bring an extra change of clothes.

Bush Concert

Gavin was a bit older than the version of the man I was so smitten with but his voice was still the one that I loved. They played many songs from Sixteen Stone, including Little Things, Machinehead, Everything Zen, Alien, Glycerine... They couldn’t have ended the night with a better song, Comedown, my personal favorite from that album. It compliments the soft, yet raspy, texture of Gavin’s voice. By the end of the night, I felt like I was thirteen again. I thought about you performing when you were in band.

When the concert was over, the band members threw items out into the crowd. You had already left to close your tab and was waiting for me. As people were pushing forward to try to catch them, I started walking away. I didn’t need anything, because the experience was enough. I was ready to end the night knowing that I had a great time. People in front of me fumbled trying to get a drumstick he threw and it rolled in between my feet. I picked it up and made my exit. Gavin played the drums for a minute with the drummer and I wondered if that was the one he touched.

We had a little issue with coat check because I lost my ticket. After the manager came over and it was all sorted out, we left with my coat and my new drumstick. I had such an amazing evening. This was one of the first times that I realized that things are always great when we are together. Things have it’s way of working out in our favor, as if the universe is telling us we belong together.

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